In my journey as an artist, I've discovered that creating is more than just a passion; it's a lifeline, a tether to the deeper currents of my existence. It is a means to explore the complexities of control and chaos that define my daily life. With an inclination for structure and a history of battling addiction, I've often sought refuge in the comfort of schedules and regimented routines. However, beneath this veneer of control lies a profound anxiety about the true extent of our influence over the world around us. Am I stifling the potential for growth and new experiences by clinging too tightly to the reins of control? This is the central paradox that fuels my need to create.

    I turn to my art as a vessel for rediscovering order within chaos. In the act of painting, I relinquish the linear constraints of daily life, giving myself permission to embrace the abstract, breathe freely, and channel my emotions in their purest form. The canvas becomes a canvas for exploring the intricate dance between structure and spontaneity, control, and release.

In the strokes of my brush, I find solace and understanding. I find the courage to confront the vulnerability of being human, to acknowledge the fragility of control, and to unearth the hidden harmonies within the chaos.

    In essence, I paint to transcend the boundaries of my existence to grapple with the questions that define my journey. Through abstraction, I discover new dimensions of self-expression and emancipate myself from the constrictions of linear living. Art is my sanctuary, my sanctuary is art, and it is here that I explore the enigmatic interplay of control, chaos, and the profound beauty that emerges in between.